Sometimes, I wonder how long I should wait to see if he can catch up with where I think I am vis-a-vis him, and yet I think what bullshit that is to even have that thought because clearly I am presently looking for anyway out of this yummy relationship I’ve found, maybe because I know how this yummy could be yummier, yet this relationship won’t be the one to do THAT yummy in my mind even if I ask, sigh. Yet, I will, for another year and a half, keep asking and pushing for the yummy I want in this relationship.